Chapter 5 - The Sage Room

The drive home took twelve minutes. Neither of us spoke.
When we walked through our front door, the house was dark, warm, and quiet. There was no party tent, no brass bell, and no artificial celebration waiting for us. There was only the smell of fresh coffee and the soft hum of the refrigerator.
I walked straight down the hallway and pushed open the door to the third bedroom.
The room was painted a soft, soothing sage green—the color we had chosen four years ago when we first began mapping out a future that felt like it was sliding forever out of reach. For two years, every time I walked past this door, a heavy, suffocating ache settled into my chest. It was a room full of empty air and postponed hope.
I switched on the light and walked in.
On the closet shelf sat the box of tiny yellow socks and the newborn onesie that read GRANDMA’S FAVORITE—a gift I had bought in a moment of innocent, naive joy before my mother tried to crush it out of me.
I picked up the onesie, folding it neatly in my hands. The cotton was soft, untouched, and waiting.
Nolan appeared in the doorway. He leaned his shoulder against the frame, watching me quietly.
“Your phone’s been ringing,” he said gently. “Your dad. Three times. Your mom once.”
“Did you answer?”
“No.” He walked into the room, stepping softly across the hardwood floor, and wrapped his arms around me from behind, resting his chin on my shoulder. “It’s your call. Always.”
I looked down at the sage-green walls.
The $18,000 was gone. It had funded Nashville bachelorette trips, designer clothes, and a boutique LLC for a sister who viewed my life as a secondary resource for her own performance. Our fertility doctor’s warning echoed softly in my mind: Every year matters, Gina.
We were back at square one. We had to start saving from zero. We had to rebuild the account from night shifts at the hospital and office management salaries.
Except this time, we weren't carrying anyone else’s weight.
“I’m not calling them back tonight,” I whispered, leaning back against Nolan’s chest.
“Good.”
“And Nolan?”
“Yeah?”
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“Tomorrow morning, I want to call Dr. Hayes’s office.”
Nolan tightened his arms around me, pressing a soft kiss against my temple. “Done.”